28 February 2006
`Just wanna turn in early_
Thought I'd skip my dinner but seeing so much food left over, I had it after shower. Didnt' do revision for COE as I've no idea of that though I passed for the previous PT, is just my luck. Well, I just hope I won't be having a habit of taking nap any more as I just wanna turn in early at night. Otherwise, I'll be eating up their breakfast (Bread... is floor again). Damn it, so what's the point of jogging, cycling and gyming? Idiot right?
`Overslept_
Argh... all my guidance angel not doing their work, asking 'em to pray for me that I won't overslept but see... I'm right infront of the com at this hour. Darn it! I used to miss Monday lesson but not it seems like Monday I'm pretty alright with it. Now... Tuesday and Wednesday are my self declare off days? SHIT...
Today suppose to see Ms Phua cuz I didn't go for the IRAS trip, is the second appointment with her, but not that free just to travel all the way to see her. So not going to school. I think my accounts starting to drop again since I've been missing 2 days of lessonS and tomorrow there's no accounting class... hais...
Going off for shower, and then start doing my homework. Hmm... can't afford to slack yah?
Thanks gurl for helping me out lots. I've seen through many things and I'm searching for my soul back.
`Done with homework_ I'm done with all homework, waiting for her to be online to teach me stock valuation using weighted average method. Happily waiting... while playing game =)
I still prefer this song afterall...
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:26
27 February 2006
`Cldn't get to slp_
Precisely I couldn't get to sleep, argh. Lil' cousin is coming out from JB wif her friend, wondering will we meet up tomorrow, not confirmed yet. Results gonna be released tomorrow, wish me good luck.. I wanna score full mark!
Thinking to blog "Our memories" but it seems like a long entry to edit since the last edition was on 050106? But still 'll update it... =)
`Finish updating_
Finally I'm done with the updating. Anyway, lil' cousin can't cmf wif me, hopefully she's gonna call or sms me by 12pm. If she's not meeting me up then I think I'll not be wanting to miss IAC lessons. Gosh, bag haven't packed yet. And I'm going to sleep now... is late. Missing ya
`Careless_
Lil' ved forgotten to take her book from me and so I delivered it to her house doorsteps hopefully her dad sent it to her school. I was already late cuz of her yet the train was being delayed again n again, darn it. Sigh...
I met Mr Cheo just now when standing outside BCM lap, sigh. A bad news for me, I didn't score full mark. Cuz the question didn't requires me to open up disposal account and so I forgotten to put it up to the Profit and Loss account (extract) hais... why am I always so careless...? There's this strong hatred in myself. Hais... I hate myself more than anyone else. Feeling so fragiled, feeling like crying out now... who can feel the great disappointment that I had for myself? No ones... I not just wanna score an A, but I wanted a full mark when I think I can do it. I never learn from my mistakes at all. How many careless mistake must I made before I learnt? Idiot!
Not going for IAC lesson, already told Mr Cheo the reason. Just to help out Kel with her BCM project. Haix... hopefully I'm able to help, and she just appreciate. My mood, really down. Hais... enough.
Mr Hari came to inform us our attendance. Jialin 91%, you believe? Hais...
`When I needed someone there fer me, they always leave_
Before I forgotten, I met up Mr Cheo outside BCM lab right? I told him that I was thinking of helping out kel either today or tomorrow. But tomorrow he's preparing the PT for Correction of Error, and yep I don't wanna miss it. He said something "You choose yourself, you're an adult" giving me that smile. Haa... something real sad, heard from Kakis YY that he's gonna be away on Friday for 2months... on course. Hais... that's terrible to me. I really needed him at this critical moment but... ... ... *Speechless... tears wetted up, showered my heart. My CA2, disappointed him ya? Haa... 96/100 careless, careless and careless. Haix... how could I be? I need 70 mark from final paper to obtain an A... I wish I'd achieve it, don't wanna disappoint his effort in coaching and drilling us. Sad...
Just reach home from helping kel, hopefully I manage to help her out. Just incase you forgotten, here it's for you reference
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3. Examples from each type of blog
4. The advantages and disadvantages
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6. How to creat own blog
7. Creditors (Where the information you sourced from)
Good luck for the presentation next week, jia you le... Glad that I went to help her straight after school otherwise, I think I might 've been to smoking and drinking again. Sigh...
Tomorrow COE PT IV? Think so... going to shower and start revision till turning in. Wanna do well for every test be it coutable or non-countable into overall. I just wanna do well, or rather I wanna score the highest...
Lost appetite...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:12
26 February 2006
`Loving today_
It was a peaceful sundae, nice sleep I've got... just wake up too *Winks 16hrs of sleep, wondering how do I get to sleep early tonight and attend the 8am tax class tomorrow, sigh.
Yesterday yep went to ECP, rather pissed off by 'em. But forget it, not gonnas blog about em. Today planning to go gym, but doubt any kakis going with me. And also feeling rather weak, guess 've been exercising without control? Hurhur.. Hmm.. such a nice sundae, guess I shall spend the whole evening revising my tax and accounting yah? Yep... that's the way... plan should always be carried out. =)
"ve a nice dream, MH was playing an excellent piece in my dream. And he seems to be into fashion design? Haahaa... whatever it's. Just hope he excel in his talents. That's about all. 'fred wait for my good news and keep ur promise. Must learn how to take kaiire, seems like u're pretty weak. *Speechless
`Just wake up from napping?_
Was doing revision while this brother disturbing me. So I went to sleep again for 3hours, just wake up. Can I get back to sleep later? I dreamt of you again. And yep... brother knew I smoked.. =l
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:02
25 February 2006
`Something strikes me again_
I've to blog about this. I haven't been showing my kindness at all. There's this pregnant women who board the MRT, I saw it I was wanting to give up my seat to her, but she walked off too fast and none given up their seat. I feel so bad... And I think it was Thursday afternoon when I finish my tax lesson, I saw this s'mate of mine's was in needs of help I feel so tempted to help but I just didn't know why of her influence I didn't. Watching her mom helping her down from the stairs is all I've done, idiot me... may heaven punish me!
I met up Soso sis with her two lil' kids @ JP! It has been a long time since I last met up with her. She's fine, happy for her. Then went to Mac to get drink for sisters, and I saw Ah Hui aunty and Jenny aunt! Haa... it has been a donkey years since I last saw 'em... that's the last day of working at Alpha Log. They've been fine... still the usual them, conflicts... *yawns... Yep, shared with them how bad dad and I've been getting along. Come to think of it, afterall, dad 've been nice to me. At least he went to watch my concert before. Mom? None... she failed to go each time. Things just happened too coincidence le... I simply miss those evening that I came back home sitting down in the room, playing the bach suite no, suite no 1 all the sixth movement... where's my bow, Jo?
Friend, 'fred promising me a reward. Wondering is he able to keep his promise just to stay happy and hang out late lesser. Hopefully guy* The next reward gonna ask from you is your bike licence... heh heh... better get your licence soon and give me a free ride to school whenever you're free... is your promise, remember? Haa, seems like you've been promising me lots of things... but will there be anyone that you gonna fulfil? Putting everything into hopeS
"ve been carrying out my plans, exercising... that's pretty good. Gonna set target, just wish to cut down 2kgs at the end of March, possible yah? Tomorrow going to ECP to cycle with Jo's and maybe my lil' chio bu, Ved... haa... that's about all... is long enough for the day.
`Sigh... _
It's 5:32AM in the morning and yep I'm still awake wondering later how am I gonna cycle. Haa, anyway, I believe everyone has heard about this NYP girl and her boyfriend. Sigh... I feel so pitiful for her parent, wondering how are they gonnas face all relatives and friends. Not gonna comment much, but just good luck to them...
`Just 4hours of sleep I've got_
Turning in this morning around 6am and woke up at 10. I didn't know why, it was unusual of me. Perhaps, I'm thinking the past the warm I felt in his arms and the playful morning. I had this dreamt of him again the previous night. He was sick and his mom didn't wanna let him go out? And his mom just spoke to me on the phone asking me to talk to him. A weird dream, but just forget it. Thinking he must be working, hopefully he had his breakfast. Thinking and missing him...
//Things always messed up
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:05
24 February 2006
Argh... was plain lazy didn't wanna get out of bed this morning. Hurhur... slacked till 6.15AM then forced myself to get up. So was a lil' late but see that lecturer went off for an urgent meeting. Darn it...
By right, I really have lots to blog at this hour, but see... is blank. Oh yah... not to forget went for a jog last night, guess I'm too fat cuz was pretty tiring, turning in before 12AM?!! Gosh, don't tell me I'm adjusting back to the normal lifestyle? Yuppies! That's gonna be great yah... hopefully by the next semester, I won't be relying too much on morning calls.
Clement's Happy Birthday yah...
`Learning how to let go_
Didn't know why things just strikes through me to smoke and beer AGAIN. Perhaps, I should learn to put down everything yah?
Role play sucks... is totally blank perhaps my mind was all of you? aaarrrrggggghhhhH... just wish to shout out like this...
PIG smoking and drinking...//
`Exercising = Happy
Have been thinking and thinking till tears dropped again, I didn't know why. After awhile, think my eyes are tired of crying huh? So been to napping! Still Ved called me when she finished school and yep... went to JE Sports Complex, finally...!!! And that lil' gurl think the gym was opened by her daddy yar? Thinking of wanting to wear school u in? Pls lor, impossible. Luckily I've brought another additional t-shirt with me. And it was so nice of the instructor there yar? Went to find a short pant for her. Hurhur... is my first time been to gym, nah... what's so funny? That girl keep mocking at me... hmph... ! So the instructor was pretty nice, guiding me here and there. Haa... erm... yep been there 1.5hour just exercising non-stop... sweat a lot, duper smelly! Haven't shower yet... just reached home
After gym, went to meet jie jie @ JP, she paid for my piercing! Thanks lot jie jie! Erm... she wanna buy me a pair of ear ring, not really ring not really stud, just rather nice. Costing her $12.90... too expensive though I like it very much, but still I tell her I don't want. Haa... gonna buy it myself... bleahx... ! Save for your driving licence yar? And get your own car, give me a free ride to school every morning even when I work. Hurhur... day dreaming...
Happygirl//1056PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
08:24
23 February 2006
`Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
`Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
`Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
`Deep down in my heart I know I still like you
`But on the surface I'm trying hard to tell everyone...
`...including myself that I'm forgetting you
`Realise how playful can god of fate be
`He can bring the one you love so close to you at one moment
`But on the next moment, your love one is gone
`One come to this world, the main motive is to find another part of yours and live happily ever after
`He may be at the end of this world, your job is to find him
`Guys do goes around flirting with other girls
`While deep in his heart, he has you as a dearest one
`Can this be counted as a nice guy...
`How much do you cherish people surrounding you
`Do you always hope to lessen your lifespan just to increase your love's lifespan?
`Do you always hope to lessen your lifespan just to increase your love's lifespan?
`It's okay we're seperated
`As long as you're happy with your current life with your new partner
`I'll be happy for you
`'s this quote too?
`Many people said this...
`But...
`How many people meant it,
`deep in their heart?
-sourced from kakis blog's_//
Attitude is a lil' thing that makes a big difference
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:38
`Brain not functioning @ all_
Damn it, my brain just don't seems to be thinking at all. Sigh...
Guess this morning I had scared off too many people, first was he, 14 miss calls
"Hmmm..u scare me..still tot of calling u again in 5mins time..remember to do hard as wat u say..." next was she "U wake up liao ma? Dun scare me lei now almost 8am ler ..." haa... I was showering when he calls and was preparing when she smsed me. Guess, they were really scared by me. Muhahaha... anyway, this morning the MRT simply sucks, delayed twice and each more than 5mins I supposed. Thought of taking cab to school but it seems like the queen is pretty long and bus came at the same time, so took bus in the end. A lil' late, but still manage to finish it on time. And yea... confident to score an A for this CA... wondering any rewards for full mark??? Haa... kidding.
Still remember I did mention what I wanna blog about the msg that forced me to go school just for the stupid rehearse? That's I promised kakis to treat 'em eat pizza if I didn't go. Haa... so this msg from kakis YY said: "Girl, wake up liao if don't wanna treat pizza" sort of like this. Haa... anyway... was already out from the bathroom so I still went yah?
Tomorrow... damn it IAC lesson cancelled... due to... unknown reason. Sigh, so I just 've to wake up at 6.30am just to go school for role playing and that's it. Darn it!!! And Mic... reminded me not to be late, yah yah... wake me up lol. Haix...
Msg from friends:
Hau - U too jia u and get full mark ar.
Mic - Jia u and wish u all the best
Orange - Good luck and all the best.
Jing - U too jia u
Kakia yy - where is ur's?
Guy, 'fred - do as hard as what u said [I told him I'll do well for this CA2]
"ve been thinking of you...
... on my way home
His nick... I hope he's fine yah guy?
Jogging tonight... that's for sure... hopefully 2 rounds yah... gaining and gaining non-stop. @$^*(&%#!
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:22
22 February 2006
`Something striked me to blog_
Back from wash up and there're lil' things that came across my mind. His doggies Kim had just given birth to 3 puppies eager to pay lil' em a visit. =) After my CA I'm sure gonna take a look. Yep, walked pass a music school this afternn while shopping, I saw this german made cello displaying that I walked into the school without knowing why. Suddenly having a urge of taking my official grades again... anyway... I just didn't blog that I dreamt I re-mastered cello again. Having a bad habit of dumping all things onto my bed, and I'm gonna swear I'm not gonna do that anymore. Not gonna sleep with a single thing on my bed other than mp and handphone.
If I'm able to wake up around 5am plus gonna be great, cuz I thought of going for a jog in the morning. But I doubt so, haix... forget it just go for the evening one...
`Early in the morning 8 o'clock_
Thanks to people who wakes me up. I had this terrible dreamt that I took one of his dog back, rather obedient, but just terrible nah... keep on pestering me one person even when I'm sleeping. Terrible nightmare rather...
And I was pissed off by him [WH] his infinite reporting of how many puppies his dog, kim had given birth to. Damn it... deleting smses is tiring especially when you've such long nails.
I'm happy I wanna be being woke up like this every morning. At least I'm half an hour early to blog again. Haa... stops all these I just wanna complaint. Parents just treat me as a kiddo. I knew that mom's gonna knock on the bathroom door and says: "Please remember to lock the door when you're down. I've made a cup of milo for you in the kitchen, please remember to finish it up the whole cup. And I've given you 10 bucks on your table, please remember to take it. I'm going to work now, please remember to lock the door". Damn it... she's just a nuisance. Haa... kk... I know I'm bad... afterall she's pretty nice and caring mummy but that's not the way mom. Haa... how many times i've been saying that? And I don't like you to spoon feed me with by giving me allowances!!! I've already grown up... I wanna be semi-independent... if I really ran out of money to use, I shall work... okay? Thanks... and I think dad was the one who tidy up my bed for me? Darn it... I know how to do it myself. I mean I just wanna 've a shower first before tidying up my room. And please! Don't ever close my room window when I'm still at home! Is damn humid and suffocating did you all know? I know what to do when I'm out to school. Xie xie ni men... haix...
`School updates_
Nothing much in school, just this lil' thanks to Mr Hari for pulling my attendance from a by right of 60% + to 91% if not I think i'll be receiving the debar form from him. Haa... and other lecturers were rather surprising to see my percentage of attendance is that high cuz they haven't been seeing me lately. Hurhur... taxation, iac, bcm... damn it... stressed out! Rehearsing the role play, lots of laughters... except her... she's so quiet... perhaps thinking of something? Hmm, cheer up gurl... take kaiire... gonna do revision, tml IAC CA2... wish me good luck, thanks!
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:44
21 February 2006
`Self reflection, plenties of thoughtS _
Just back from a quick jog, feeling hot3. Blog a lil' before shower yah, gotta rest first right?
Jo you're right there should be trust in between best n close friends. Is just that I'm too sensitive and suspicious of this and that, I shouldn't be like this. =() ) I terrible miss you and I know what can motivate you to exercise with me where both of us enjoy. That's cycling!!! Can I book you every sunday for hours of cycling starting from this week onwards? ECP or PRP? Please give me an answer to it. Lil princess, Wayne is right too... we just 've to be more optimistic... =D
After a few days of jogging I cutted down, but I thought it gonna maintain like this if I watched out my diet for at least a few months . But I think, I've ate too much of junk food... I'm gaining back again so really time to plan for slimming activities and I'll make sure it at least last me for months... and slowly become a good habit...
Thought of going to gym [wif ved], jog round the neighbourhood [haven't found any kakis], cycling [wif Jo]. So yep, gonna get all these planned out. If possible, skating... of cuz I need darling Percie to help me out with it. Haa, safeguarding me. On the other hand, I need to work... I don't wanna see my mom paying for so many things all alone by herself I wanna help her out with the family burden. Hopefully with so many things keeping me occupied won't tired me out. The most important, I can't afford to neglect my studies any more.
I realized there are many friends [Jo, kakis YY, CH, JJ, Damian and Alfred] of mine out here morning calling me daily just to make sure that I won't overslept and constantly encouraging me to study hard and make it to poly. And yep, I don't wanna disappoint any one of them, I don't wanna wake up only when I discovered all my friends has done lots more better than me, I don't wanna let my mom down and I don't wanna my money to be wasted like this. Hold on there, i'll keep my promise if not I'll flunk all moduleS...
Have a great tmy wif Vedenlene today... hopefully everything's gonna be fine for you. Anything just look out for me, i'll help you out. Thanks gurl... lurfes you 184
I wanna catch lot of movies... but most important is to study hard now and rewards will be ahead of me from myself... a wae of pampering myself =)
Things I'm gonna do now... ripping new songs into mp, settle down with homework and draft a time-table for tomorrom. Gonna stick closely with it. Hmm... I was thinking not to come to online so frequently, but it has become a habit since the day i've internet access. And so... perhaps what the best solu to do is to cut down the duration. Yes... that's the way. Nah, I'm being a liar that I wanna terminate my internet access and my handphone contract this afternoon [was telling mom]. No way... if you gonna ask me to live w/o internet access, might as well 've my life. Seeing dad and mom aching all over really breaks my heart deeply, yet I don't even spend time chatting with them nowadays. Sigh... they're just getting old and perhaps... I should at least greated him 'Dad, I'm back home". Haix... is hard... forget it...
Nighty...
Attitude Problem Girl//
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:20
Was it my fault again?
Argh... guy trimmed your hair? Darn it... I was thinking of getting you the kimage gift card for you to get your hair nicely trimmed and styled before your cousin's wedding but... haix... nevermind... suan le, I'm just one step slower. Anyway, you look duper good in everything...
Is 2.43AM in the morning right now, just hung up the phone... happily chatting here and there till now I still couldn't get to sleep. There're these lil' things that you always don't get it. I just wanna you to take xtra care and just hang out late less, rest early but you just couldn't adjust back the time. Is not that I wanna interfere your life, is just that I wanna remind you that it's not a way to live your life constantly like this. Haix... oh yar... I'm reminding myself... I'm just a friend to you shouldn't get over concerned either. All these are just tearing us farer apart...
I've been to wonders... 've you been to here... if yes, why break your promise again? Haix... I've never came across such a tiring f'ship... gurl... save me out and... good news for you I've got the answer for you, just be prepared...
I wanted to say out all, who's there? My kindess, my thoughtfulness, my understanding, my caring 've u seen any of these? Not asking you to repay me anything just can't you give in to me just once, just once? Can't even you lie to me... ?
Tears wetted up late nitex... mentally tired, physically worn out, who understands this kind of tiredness? I don't care, I just wanna you to know...
Blogging friend's blog... here lil' bern cool says: "Life is short to keep on waiting and bugging. When answer is obvious, live it and follow it"
lil' update...
As usual, I'm still at home. These few nitex turn in pretty late so just couldn't force myself get out of bed every morning. This week attendance gonna be the most worst attendance that I ever got. Sigh... Hari haven't been seeing me for 2 days, when I get to see him and there he goes again: "Iya Jialin... " damn it... Thanks for waking me up though a lil' too late, but at least you called when I didn't asked you to or did I? Just thanks. Think you're still outside with your friends... ... ... Erm... thursday having CA2, darn important please try your best to wake me up! Thanks frenz...
Majority of online pals said that I'm too violent and, haa... must learn to be gentle. Hurhur... thanks guy for reminding me that.
I'm back from shopping, yep spent quite a lot, damn it. Sigh... what to do... went out with lil' ger so must pay for majority of things mah... so... rather broke. Hmm... yep time to mug... guy is just a question hopefully I didn't really scared you away...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:09
20 February 2006
Damn it, still 've lots more to copy. How? I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. I am tired and exhausted. Haix... wednesday role play? Didn't realise that it's drawing so near, I'm unprepared for so many things. Thursday accounting ca2... I really feel like meeting the mushroom head to 've a talk with her... letting her know all the endless project, tests and exams are too tight... we're all struggling... damn it.
Is already 2:11AM and I'm awake, finally filled up the file with some notes for each topic. Hmm, thought of not going but better not... cuz it'll be endless notes to be copied too. So better go yar? And yah... going off for wash up and then pack my bag before turning in. Tata ~
lil' update @ 8:45PM...
Girl don't bother to apologise as I know I didn't help much either, just repeating things that I've said before. Thinking I'm the one who wasted so much of your precious tym yah? Just hope you'd do something 'bout it. But seriously if this happens to me, I'll just wanna be friend since he already said ... .. . so gonnas be tough for you, let tym heal the wounds. If crying out loud gonna heal the pain, go ahead and cry... eventually you'll feel better, that's what I feel. Always remember these "Among us you've shared, who had really came across the same situation as you?" I'm the one, and I guess the only one... and is just about few weeks ago that I get over it. So I'm clearer than anyone else how exactly you feel, and what's the right thing to do...
Missed taxation, and bcm class this morning, overslept. What to do? Wednesday role play, thursday accounting ca2... too tight for me. Haven't even take a look at the script, haix... just pray for me that I'm able to memories my part bahs...
Just couldn't think of a title for recent posts...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:30
19 February 2006
lil' thoughts...
I'm getting even fatter, shirt getting smaller and pant getting tighter oh well still no ones gonna accompany me to gym hAixx... think should be going round the neighbourhood AGAIN. Think I'm gaining is because of I'm actually a flour lover... simply loves bread, cakes and pastries that's the result yar?
Lazy to copy all those stuffs haix... damn it why am I still in school? I rather step into society having lots more stress than schooling. At least there's this lil' income and never gets worried when cash running out... vexed over money.
So these few daes 've been working hopefully you'll just take good care n by now should know what I wanna sae right? Drink tons of water... you're no longer that strong. Take kaiire...
Girl always 've this question in mind and guys never answered it straight, **** it...
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:42
When Kel n I were crossing the road there's this grandma who sudden gave me that smile which terrified me. I was feeling so scared and my legs become jelly legs... standing at the traffic junction and I got frightened by that two guys who passes behind me, I think they were being frightened by me too. Sorry gurl if I did frighten you too... not purposely...
Nice hanging out with em, yea bernice sun burnt was nice, especially her cheeks yar? Blush look and her stomach 30% cooked look. This girl simply chat about anything and I was so stunned by her questions... well... did manage to answer but frankly speaking not many ppl know about my r'ship issue. So... that's why the surprising look... Qin, I hope she's gonna be fine soon and hang on there jux one more year to go, very soon will be graduating from this bloody hell school righty? Kel... I thought we gonna be chat about ur problems? Hmm... find a time we go out shopping and that's when we can chat non-stop.
Frightened, I was thinking of calling you.
What a sunday flu... damn it! By right I should be going out but she's not free and so forget about it. Later meeting CH to take YY's file from her and yea... I'll 've to copy all those I don't 've, gosh... it will be a pile to copy tonight... gotta burn mid-night oil le. Haix...
And here I've to say, this mummy why always kajiao me sleeping? I mean just leave my books on my bed as it is, why bother to tidy it up and yes I know I'm FAT... but still I'd find some space to sleep so PLS don't disturb me sleeping lah... and where's my MP3 you put at? I can't find it... haix...
I know I've this habit of messing up the room especially my bed, but jux bear with it kKx? Nah, you've got to know that your daughter always do last min homework and usu will fall asleep while seeing all those figures, that's why didn't pack up all books before sleep mah... opps... I'm jux a lier... [Everytime take out jux to act that I'm gonna do revision, but just for a post nia... if not they'll nag nag nag say everytime only know how to place my butt on the com chair and sit down there for the WHOLE evening...] Haix... still 've lots more to say about THEM...
Darn it mom was snatching the bathroom with me, well luckily I kinda used to the kitchen bathroom. Didn't know why, reading back the dec '05 archives lots of memories wanna pen down here but running out of time, maybe when I'm back from JP bah... hmm... yea... today gonna be lots of update, readers sure fall asleep... but doesn't matter...
I hope I'll luv myself more
05:17
18 February 2006
Haven't been napping last evening cuz was painting my long nails yar? Yes it's getting longer time to trim or rather file le bah... but before that, gonna sleep first. Of cuz tiring but was chatting still... I like the wae we're now... hope its remain like this 184... showering you with cares is the most basic thing that I can do.. miss euu
Duper nice of mom came back home with my favourite duck noodle, yep and this gonna last me till tonight when I chill out with 'em around mid nitex. Haven't been jogging for pretty a long time since mom came back home, oh well simply too lazy... but exam is coming... getting more stressful. Time to mug... guess so.. tata ~
Praying for u and her... hopefully things would be fine soon yar?
lil' update here... .. .
Nothing much today, just finish doing my homework and here online edit lil' bit of blog and think tym to mug again... time for revision before chilling out tonitex-reposted @ 9:09PM
Taken specially for the photo cube, nice long nails right?
Think I can forget about wanting to chill out at late nights again, it's not the first, second nor the third times that this chilling out session didn't fulfilled... BIG SIGHS. I mean if really wanna meet out and chill... be it 2 persons or 4... it's still the same. It doesn't makes much difference to it cuz afterall, even it's 4 persons we will still be pairing ups... haix... whatever it's... not gonnas gloom about it.
I shall wait for him to be online and chat again bah... and nice of this online pal, Damian to be online... one week seems to be once that we're chatting...
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:36
17 February 2006
I'm done with copying answer for my COE PT I and finish doing COE PT II. And I'm tired... so not gonna copy Charlene's answer, maybe send for photocopying as I terribly need it for reference, all answer there! Heh heh... when are we chilling out? Tonight or tomorrow nite? Everytime no answer to it, sigh... nighty!
Thought I'd hang out with girls at 12am, but see this lil' ger couldn't make it and we've to cancel it AGAIN! After school went to meet kel to creative to get my ear piece changed, but who knows it has to go back in one piece, but mine already become 3 pieces le... haix... so didn't manage to change and I threw it away too. Saw one creative nice ear piece wanna buy it but costing me 49 bucks wondering it will last or not haix... if really like it so much think will be buying it after my april holiday bah... gonna work. After that went to JP to had our lunch @ Pizza Hut AGAIN! Haa... nice sey... some more kel n qin frenz work there, got this 25% discounts, $34++ after discount... worth it, each only paying bout 8.4bucks lidat...
Reached home get my nails painted... purple and blackies... cool man! Lurfes it... that's about all?
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:17
16 February 2006
Had a great time with Agnes and Jo's, nice shopping we've got. When gonna be the next time we gonna be meeting out again? Didn't bought much things but spent quite a bit. Broke... haa... when's my pay?!! And bank account kena hacked? Not sure tomorrow going to the bank right after school. Haix... think tomorrow will be getting back my taxation CA2 results... damn it... predictable mark: 82-85 like that bah. Not gonna pull up my CA1 mark, sigh. And yea... tomorrow COE PT II... haven't revise and homework haven't do either, yet I'm tired, sleepy. But still gonna do before turning in. Haix... lots more to update but guess tomorrow bah... nighty!
... i'm tired...
Nothing much... taxation 78... damn it... 2 more % to A. Blame me for being careless... pissed off!
Lost appetite... -reposted @ 6:13PM
I'm so tired though just wake up from nap, still feel like sleeping. Nah, it has been days for me that everyone's asleep while I was awake and they're awake while I'm asleep. Damn it... all thanks to brother, also didn't know what he's up to last night... didn't 've a good sleep... haix. Tomorrow going for the IRAS trip? Don't know... cuz me meeting gers up to shop shop, after this will be meeting next for afternn coffee @ coffeebean to catch up. Then at night chilling out @ PM with babes till morning then back home to sleep bah? That's gonna be great... cuz I don't wanna be alone @ nite... is so L.O.N.E.L.Y...
Leading in the past... missing you everynitex... terrible...
Friends note are still with me, wondering when will I finish copying and return back to them. Owning so many homework... endlessly pile up high work... SHIT...
-reposted @ 1114PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:40
15 February 2006
:+: Special entry for all moii dearies :+:
Kel - Knowing having to school and work at the same tym iish not easy. More over, workplace having so mani conflicts. The only solution iish to leave and concentrate on your studies right now. Ger, you've got the potential in studying okies? And I need you to motivate me as well, you're my guiding angel, winkies ~ This Fridae we gonna share all our problems yar? Can't wait till that dae and I realli hope I'd cheer u up jux once. Promising you to be der fer euu 184, 24/7 okies, just a call and i'll be right beside you... smuckiex~
Gurl - Yep, you wasn't creating e mess but u're jux saying out words that 've been keeping deep down in your heart for donkey years. I've to admit, it really stunned me when I came across to know that you really did tell him. Well, though you might not get a reply from him, but so what? At least you've said... you said it out, you tell and you told some of your frenz righty? That's the courage that I'm admiring... it has already happened, don't gloom over it too much. I know it's gonna be tough, how 'd I be asking you not to think of him, not to miss him... is impossible. So what I'd say is hang on there, you'll just have to hang on there and I'll be your pillar when you stumbled, is my promise. It's so strange that you didn't want a reply, an answer unlike me. Muackies ~
Till date, I think I'm still waiting for his reply of what I've sent to him in the mail. Damn it, the only person who refused to reply my mail. Forget it...
Baby Jas n Kino - You girls always keep things in between the gang, is rare that we meet out and think it's unlikely that you girls gonna share with me righty? Hmm, nevermind then... I just hope you girls would get over it and be strong and funky once more! Loves rocking out with you girls... *Huggies...
Mummy - No new from you about him but Gino. Haa... more updates kies? *Huggies
Jo - am still waiting for your mail. And you're real greedy how 'd u **** for 3 guys?!! All of us so devoted and you was like... dotx... haa... kidding, not gonna comment too much when I didn't know what's happening to you lately. When are you going gym with me, when are you going to jog around this neighbourhood with me, when are you going shopping with me and when are we going to 've lunch/dinner again?????
The weather is killing me argh... how am I gonna sleep in this kind of weather? Haa, but I doubt I can switch on the air con, cuz I'm not feeling well. Mummy is going... `````````......... =( Haix... is late in the night everybody at home is sleeping and i'm still awake. Yep thought of doing revision, but think forget it... Tomorrow gonna be a self declare holiday again, well... that's us! I'm tired... gonna sleep in no time. Oh yah... havent' been weighing my my fats... and I think I'm gaining again since I've stopped jogging. Is bored to jog alone... lack of motivation. Beside, I know I'm gonna lose weight if I'm gonna work... that's for sure... standard me. Haa... so be a fatty right now bah... haa... looking forward towards my holiday in april. Nighty everybody... sweetie dream
:+: lil' update :+:
I'm at home as usu, wed seems to be a holiday to me since the beginning of second semester. Happy to hear from you, get up and move on hao ma? Best wishes to you, your promise will you remember? Let's see... I'm getting you something, pend for it kies? Haa, though don't like whatever you said out in msn cuz really breaks my heart to see you like this. And yep... my wonder finally is gone, so you've planned it out. Haa, take kaiire worx! Hmm... didn't sms me cuz scare disturb me? Silly... no ones sms will kajiao dao me de, only will enlighten my day. So don't hesitate to sms me okies dokies? Jealous of what... will ask u when we meet up. Hopefully there'd be a time we gonna 've dinner together again yar? Miss you...
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:06
14 February 2006
I don't wanna deny... am missing you. One month we've not met up, what's wrong? Last heard from you was 3days ago, wondering how you been. The first person who wishes me "Happy Valentine's Day" is a stranger... *speechless... haix. Later gonna 've my taxation CA2, worried... 'd you just say: "I've faith in you for your exam/test later..miss you" again? I'm still waiting, waiting for this feeling to be faded without having to force myself to forget you. I still wanna the friendship... Happy Valentine's Day to you. Hope you're feeling better ~ x i e k c a u m s ~
Tax CA2 totally sucks, I thought I was careful enough in looking for the basis period for computing the satutory income. Yar yar... the first answer I wrote in the script is the correct one!!! BUT... sigh... an estimate of 8marks 'd be gone just for that stupid mistake. Lack of confidence for 2questions in Qns 2B 4 marks gone. [The answer is only taxable/non-taxable and I just got mix up... idiot me!] The bus driver totally sucks, wondering how he drives. I'm gonna count myself lucky to 've this person standing behind me near the door, otherwise, I'd just fall. Of course, apologized...
Haha... Elise sms me asking me to celebrate this day with her... wahaha... *Mad ar me! Haa, find a guy lah, gurl! Heex... aniwae... long time we've not met up, take kaiire and enjoy! *Winks and s m u a c k i e x ~ And guy, 10*2 for calling me out.
:+: lil' update :+:
Was taking nap and being awake by 'vin sms. Asking me for a dinner at JP... yep. Went out at around 8pm+ Haa... went to the... don't know where to eat. Next time I'll take note of the name. Yep... is extactly 10pm and I'm back right after dinner. Well, didn't really celebrate it but anyway... thanks guy for the treat...
Yep... just finish dolling up my lil' niece...and her mummy gonna 've a hard time removing the make up. Haa... forget to take pix of her... heex... nt tym...
llGuy friends are more than girl friends in my social life, how pathetic it's. Sigh...ll
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:26
13 February 2006
Piggy kor showing attitude? Damn it... I mean he can choose not to eat if the dinner mom bought doesn't appeal to him. Don't have to show that kind of attitude ma! I'm glad that you know is you r fault and glad that you come and kajiao me. So now we are cooking supper! Haahaa... blame on your lousy drawings and thanks to me for being kind to you...
Stuck with IAC homework... posted @ 1251AM
Stuck with IAC homework... posted @ 1251AM
So tomorrow gonna be valentine's day... guess tawan's girlfriend is the most fortunate girl bah... tawan got her a soo kee ring costing 178 bucks!!! And... excluding all the decoration stuffs. Haix... wondering when will I've such a SWEET boyfriend - reposted @ 11:09AM
I'm so blur, my pen is inside my school skirt I thought I've lost it, so went to buy a new one. To me is like a waste of money cum my energy! Haix... nothing new... happy birthday to her. And tomorrow gonna be my CA2... all the best and good luck to MMY, YT, SJ, YCH and me... jia you together worx!
So damn full, cuz add a lot this morning... and he's worrying about my result as well as e ear rings that I'm wearing, pissed off. Taking out tomorrow... haix... wasted my 25 bucks! Bloody... not gonna slack, gonna shower, dinner and then revision all the way! Hard work pays off.... =) -reposted @ 5:47PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:48
12 February 2006
Argh... what's went wrong again? -posted @ 12:58AM
I'm not feeling any better... I'm still in the great pain, hot drink doesn't seems to heal for me any more. Medicine is the next I've to go for... I don't wanna deny, you're still in my mind and I hate myself for being like this... like a despo lidat... totally sucks! That's not me... hands digging into the brain and digging you out... throwing you into the toilet bowl and flush it away, finally you're gone. WTH... what a liar I'm. - reposted @ 1:33PM
I'm so sick and tired of that tedious revision. Taking a break after my fruitty tea break. Though is just only 3 chapters but is spoiling my brain with all the rules... W.E.F Y/A 1979, W.E.F Y/A 2005 etc... what e hell! In the first place why I choosen taxation? 'Cuz I hate PROJECT!!! Taxation is the only elective that doesn't requires project work but I think now I'd prefer some project work at least it'd help me pass though I know is impossible to score for 100. It's much more better than to flunk that elective right? Damn it... tuesday CA2 I'm prepared for the worse to fail though Ms Tan said it's gonna be much more easier than CA1. Sigh... whatever it's... none of the rules are getting into my brain cuz it had already spoilt!
What's next revision? Accounting?!! Is figures, is numericals again!!! I'm weak in reading figures also messed it up 3 with 8, 6 with 0, 1 with 7, 2 with 5. I doubt I need a eye check up... cuz I'm simply careless... now there's one person in my mind that 'd motivate me to be more careful... that's my OS lecturer in Clementi, Mdm Juhairah... I miss her... wondering how have she been?
That lil gurl, I'm gonna screw her up. She bend and broke my long ruler... ! Keep disturbing me when I'm so stressed up with all the figures mixing up in my brain. Headache... I need pandadol... I need to rest... burst!
Enough of craps... stop slacking and back to revision. Tata @ 5:38PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:55
11 February 2006
Morning guys! Is so damn early right now, why am I awake? Thanks to my beloved mummy and I'm pretty fine now. Is a nice weekend shouldn't slip off this good opportunity to mug. Feel like doing some shopping but... Anyway, the gate door was spoilt and need around 100 bucks to get the whole door changed. Mom said maybe buying a lock will be good enough? She's thinking of changing the bathroom doors as well and that's gonna cost her quite a few hundreds. Staying in this house, never ever will I feel an old house with dad's constantly painting and painting. And one thing I've got to say here, he's weak in choosing thing. Just like the door, is only around 6 years plus and this was spoilt and that was spoilt... haix... should 've seek help from me daddy! -posted @ 8:46AM.
Just got back home from JP, went to meet Gina. That girl arh... wanna meet me don't wanna say directly... waste my smses. Haa... went to pizza hut to 've our lunch, full! And she told me she saw someone like him but uncertain. So can't be bother either. Bought my light lip gloss... worth it... =) -reposted 4:56PM.
KNS... think my charger spoilt le? What the hell, no money now yet it spoilt? Haix... time for a new phone after exam? But if gonna get a new phone, no money to get a PERSONAL dig cam le. Any there're really lots of things that I wanna buy... hmm... haix... -reposted @ 7:07PM
Actually wanna get started with my revision for the coming tax ca paper but the pain is real killing me! The useless phone can really throw it away le... if I got $$ now I sure sign for valentine package with friend. But too bad... the fact is I'll 've to find a part-time job first! - reposted @ 9:43PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
08:34
10 February 2006
Quick post before turning in for the night.
Mr Hari said: "I don't wanna a drop in your current 3.688 GPA". It really wakes me up...
Despite of all the past, how sucks my attitude towards him, he's still worrying about my results. I hope I'd do well for his module for the coming exam. Thanks Mr Hari...
I'm FAMISHED right now... gonna haunt for food otherwise I won't be able to sleep with an empty stomach... is 3:18AM wondering will they be able to wake me up @ 5:45AM? Wondering... finally gotten their beautiful pixs up here and I guess I'm clumsy? I accidentally cuts my finger? Nvm... gonna heal in no time? Nighty... -reposted @ 3:20AM!
Overslept in the MRT to simei again, arrggghhhh too tired le. Actually today don't feel like waking up so early for school but cuz of him [Mr Hari] I forced myself to wake up and in the end what we doing for his class? E-tutor? Sigh... I can do that at home if I choose to do. Haix... so rotted shit busying with my java script again and doing all my stuffs. HAIX... Anyway, gonna miss the outing with Elson they all A.G.A.I.N! -reposted @ 9:38AM.
I'm back home from school, feeling so sick during IAC lesson and that guy [Elson] still there to kajiao me, pissed off. But I'm sorry for showing you that attitude! Well, that's me... sorry guy! YY let him know okay? COE - HOR YI XI PT I real sucks up don't know how to do. And I really don't know what's wrong with her, crying? Dotx... no mood to console her either and that girl, treat her as my darling yet disappoint me again and again. I just warn her my mood is rotted since wake up yet she went back to sleep and didn't came to school? F*** off! Having lunch with Mr Hari and there he goes again, asking ME where you... WTH!!! IAC running nose, feeling very cold, nearly fallen asleep but was released back home. Took cabby to tanah merah first time saw the bus stop with so many people. 60 cents shared by kakis hau, mic, yy and me. Hmm... reach home feeling so weak head so pain, feverish... I'm feeling so damn weak and cold now. WTH...
Mummy bought me noodles? My god... !!! Some more chilli added? Anyway, thanks... Feeling sick was always so good, food and drink are being delivered to the room and that's why I'm still able to blog before resting...
Before leaving school was looking for my medicine for gastric but cuz of kor I forgotten to bring it out the pain was like on and off? So should I take or don't take... a rather strong medicine...
37.7 degree normal temperature or consider fever? Don't know le... tata... gonna rest.. -reposted @ 3:04PM
So have been resting for 6hours? Feeling better after eating that medicine mom bought into the room for me. 38.4 e temperature is gone... =) But still moodless. Yah I got the energetic to scold people le.
Today was in the queen @ the interchange and this bunch of girls were talking and talking. This bloody shit girl right infront of me, I didn't know how she walk but I just stepped onto her shoes for like 5times and so she turn back to look at me and I given her a stare. @$^*!@#%&
Later wondering are they going to chill out at PM or not. So shitty no news from her? Haix... want or don't want only also so difficult to make a choice? Whatever, I'll definitely go no matter how sick I'm cuz I miss em... e babes!
Cousin got 14 for L1R4! Cheers for her... bravo!
Bloody shit can one day don't ask me anything or not? -reposted @ 9:23PM
WTH am I thinking? Called when I'm okay but when I'm sick where are you? All I want is you caring for me as a friend... asking for too much? Perhaps...-reposted @ 9:45PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:30
09 February 2006
Haa, thought that I not meeting them any more since I'm getting sushi for kor for his dinner. But who knows that Ben called and joke that Kenny missing me while I was about to step into MISSHA to shop. Haix... =) Forever joker. Then me not eating so sitting down there listening to my mp. So they're done and this guy [Kenny] starts to zi lian, used my phone to capture his evil, devil, yan dao and cute look. Phone full of his pix...
After which went to arcade watch them play... nice going there, been a donkey years. Still 'd remember dad and mom used to bring piggy kor and I there every weekend and brother will spend up the 10 tokens of mine on behalf of me. Haa... cuz I only play the car racing with him whereas he played almost all? Yea... back to em. So yah... that guy asked me to do donation? Ben and I went dots dots dotX
Next stop coffee bean! Meeting kelly there, still that gorgeous, simply a babe yea? Hmm... so she was asking kenny while we're waiting for seats... who's he gonna celebrate v.day with? Haa... he said no one and start to joke on me, then Kelly said if I gonna like him, she's gonna bring me to have an 'eyes operation' le. Gurl, I think should be the other way round? And yea after all the jokes...she ordered a roasted chicken with mushroom fusilli? Something lidat with a forgotten what drink le... heex. Hmm... and me drinking the second glup of ultimate with cream. Ooo... and I"m full... chat and craps all the way till 10pm when I went really left with no choice to buy sushi for kor... scare he hungry... told him only awhile that I'm gonna be out but was like 4hours? Sorry brother!!!
Anyway, they're simply rocks! Loves hanging out with them especially with that evil cum devil cum jap cum yan dao cum cute guy! Keep pulling my jacket saying it gonna look like without wearing pant? Haa... I pointed him my index finger cuz don't wanan be too chor lor when I'm outside. Haa... cuz I got the I.N.N.O.C.E.N.T look!!! Kidding... whatever you like to judge... bleahx! Hopefully there will be more chances hanging out with em bah... hmm... 7 years of friend?
Reached home so happy... mom just finish chatting with me, she's tired so went back to her room le. Haa... nice chatting with mummy... still 've lots more to catch up mom! Anyway, talked to my piggy kor le... hopefully he keep his promise and hopefully dad won't... ... ... [Think only kakis YY noe about it? So you shall pray for me okies?].
And L flirt still fishing at this hour? Haa... gonna sleep tomorrow gonna have COE PT I... best wishes for me... god bless me please...!
Nighty and loving everybody 2 9!
-Happygirl...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:36
Nothing much to blog this evening, as usual? Almost late for school and yah... travel all the way there and c'mates told me that Mr Cheo is on course!!! So accurate? I mean yesterday I was lying right? Sigh... IF I knew I'd rather stay at home and sleep a little while more. Forget it... so all the way slack from around 9+ till 2pm... ?
Just reached home and mom was like chasing me to shower? So bored... that's why don't like to come back home so early. So I told her, later kor 's coming back home and is his turn to use and I'll have to wait for him to finish playing his game then I'd get to use. Haa, then she say: "Kkkk... go go go and play..." Haha... Wondering what so fun about driving the same old track everyday, no life at all. Stupid game... play for 2days and I was bored.
Mummy was telling me about dad's problem again. Sigh... I know she felt unbearable but what to do? Fated? Perhaps... leave it to him. Brothers don't bother to help out too... who to blame? Blame me for having such brothers bah... haix...
Bitter life... gonna haunt for job right after exam. Btw, today I saw one in the newspaper, paying rate $10/hr. Haa... forgotten to jot down the no. Haix... anyway... so nice of kenny asking me out for dinner with ben. Anyone interested to join us? Finally sey... haa... 've been waiting for this day for so long. Gonna catch up with them... tata~
Just reached home and mom was like chasing me to shower? So bored... that's why don't like to come back home so early. So I told her, later kor 's coming back home and is his turn to use and I'll have to wait for him to finish playing his game then I'd get to use. Haa, then she say: "Kkkk... go go go and play..." Haha... Wondering what so fun about driving the same old track everyday, no life at all. Stupid game... play for 2days and I was bored.
Mummy was telling me about dad's problem again. Sigh... I know she felt unbearable but what to do? Fated? Perhaps... leave it to him. Brothers don't bother to help out too... who to blame? Blame me for having such brothers bah... haix...
Bitter life... gonna haunt for job right after exam. Btw, today I saw one in the newspaper, paying rate $10/hr. Haa... forgotten to jot down the no. Haix... anyway... so nice of kenny asking me out for dinner with ben. Anyone interested to join us? Finally sey... haa... 've been waiting for this day for so long. Gonna catch up with them... tata~
Yea... sudden thought that strike my brain, how's life gonna be without mummy?
She was scolded by elder kor for buying the spong cake where no ones eating it. Haa... actually the cake was bought before CNY for me. Haa... mummy scare I hungry so she bought lots of CNY cookies, cakes, cup noodles, drinks for me. Haa... but I think I ate up most of the cookies only. And the cake is... I think... should be almond cake? I don't eat almond cake one. So sorry mummy. The cake I like is the one you bought before this one. Haa... so don't blame me, you bought the wrong one le. Anyway, I just love you... mummy!
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:07
08 February 2006
Being awake by them. I knew what's happening and I was kinda afraid that he couldn't hold on any more. She's leading her life in fear now, will she ever feel secured once more? She scolded, she begged and she cried heartrendly that he'd just hang on. She helped but it won't be a lifetime help... Their tears... bought me heartaches... And each time, my tear wetted up my eyes, I'd ran to my bed lying down hopefully it won't drip but I failed. I've tried to hold back the tear but none of each time I managed.
Gonna 've a good cry before get prepared for school.
Nearly forgotten that there'll be a talk this afternoon during BCM, so choose not to go again. Partly because my mood's down and partly, I haven't sleeping the whole night. So I decided not to go but still I need to get dressed in school u, just pretending lesson ends early before mom reached home. Cuz I knew if she discovered that I didn't went to school again, she's really going nuts le. Mom always think that I'm sensible, so I should be sensible and ease her mind by being a good mummy girl.
So I just woke up from nap, actually wanted to do revision for progress test on final adjustment who knows is just a 2 pages revision and I fallen asleep, bored! Thoughts, how to pen it down here? Time for shower and time to mug...
Repost @ 11:54PM
Had been doing revision after dinner, heex... praising myself... good girl nehx! It has been a long time that I've been so hard working. In between of revision was so tempted to switch on the computer but I tell myself die2 also must complete the question before blogging again!
Pretty close with mummy nowadays, that's good. Haa... but today I lied to her cuz she suspected that I didn't go to school. So I told her I did, but an hour... lecturer not there so we went back home. I knew I'm bad... but here's my promise... shall not break it this time round. If not... i'll flunk all my modules.
Hmm... kkx, think I'm tired enough. Heex... happy.
I hope I'll luv myself more
07:54
Thanks guy for reminding me that valentine day's coming in one week time. Haa... to me is not any speacial occasion but rather a sad memorable day? Haa... so we've been apart for 4 years... how you been and where are you now? Lost contact for years le... why? Apr fool's day supposed to be fun? Haa... pissed off by the sms I sent? Haa... and how you too? Long time didn't contact le bah... heex. And how you and her getting on? Fine? Hopefully... wish you and her an everlasting love. Xiang birthday, wondering when they wanna call a celebration for him. Sunday or that day itself? Girls and Guys... keep me update again kkx?
Project makes my brain rotted. Sigh... I was feeling like what's the point of having just some of us putting so much time and efforts in doing yet the rest were like so relaxing doing their own things? Haix... that's why I hates project that much! WTD, that's life. Gonna rot my brain again... nighty everybody!
Is 5:08AM in the morning, and I'm still awake. Perhaps, have been sleeping the whole day and night that why couldn't get to sleep? Or am I thinking of something? Thanks Jo for telling me that! But it was a weekday, having lesson too. Still in two mind's. Haven't been eating much thing, only 2 AGK + 2 cups of milo for the whole day, haa... famished. Later if still awake, going down to buy breakfast before school. Hmm, my ear piece spoilt le... so kelly when you gonna be free? We go down to creative and get it changed okies? Luckily still have another ear piece [half-spoilt] with me, that's my present from mummy a few yearS back! Haa... luckily, if not later going to school gonna be bored without my mp3!
Dad's birthday today, hopefully jie will not be working overtime. Hope she'd come back with brother-in-law and daughter for the celebration. Nothing in my mind as a gift for dad, maybe a cake with a card will be enough? Cuz all along, we don't celebrate birthday... and it has been a donkey years since I last celebrated dad's birthday for him. This year, I'd say I've a reason of wanting to call for a celebration. Anyway, I haven't bought any cake yet. If jie is having class for her licence, then forget about it. Is kinda strange if only me and mom celebrating for him. I think i'd have a problem of just singing the birthday song and wishing him "Happy Birthday Daddy"... ? What's so difficult... ... ... ?
Daddy thanks for bringing us up all these years, must be hard for you. You've been working hard earning just to give everyone of us a better and comfortable life, but in the end what you've got? Nothing I'd say. You placed high hope on me after he has disappointed you for times. But I doubt I'm gonna do anything to make you either. I know you're having some difficulties, but there isn't anything I'd do to help... I've to admit, I'm useless... Here wishing daddy, a very happy birthday and may you've a successful operation. Live strong daddy no matter what... hang on there till I step into society life's. I'm gonna promise you to take great care of you and mummy.
Father
And
Mother
I
Love
You
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:18
07 February 2006
Self reflection
Girl after so many things have happened, I hope you'd be strong once more. I know you're being suffocated from everything and there's no pillar there to let you hold on. If you were gonna fall one day from all these obstacles, stand up... and look ahead. Tomorrow gonna be a better day for everyone. Be it for him/her, he/she, u/i. Gonna left everything behind, nothing good to be memorised for. You must always remember that life's so unpredictable, there isn't much time for anyone of us to waste. You're too young too know what's "relationship" and you're far away too young to know what's called "love". If you dare to take up the challenge, you should be prepared for the worse outcome. However, you're not lose if you failed but you're lost if you quits. That's what the principal in I'm not stupid too have said and he has [Mr Ng, math t'cher of mine when i'm in sec 2] constantly reminding you that too, so be the demanding, wild, strict and fun-loving girl once more!
Kinda not feeling well this morning, terrible headache... feeling so giddy just couldn't force myself to get out of bed. Have been resting, wake up, resting, wake up for times till now I think a little better? Gastric haven't been good since young, sigh. Earlier on was waking up to throw up but couldn't yet feeling so uncomfortable. Famished... couldn't get out of bed either, feeling so light-headed. Didn't know why... it reflects back the t s a p I... -reposted @ 4:20PM
Sigh... friends... oh... no no no... c'mates in simei are not the type of people that I'd get along well with. I really don't know what they're thinking... perhaps... my whole idea of being in school is to learn and get a certificate after the course bah. Not there to find anyone to be clicked on well with. Haix... I miss my c'mates in xnps n blss. UQ0504F sucks!!!
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:04
06 February 2006
Just get back home from friend house, nice gambling win quite a bit but spent all in cabby and gift. Haa... doesn't matter, one year once. Thanks for the invitation!
Haven't start my revision at all. Anyway, I'm gonna rest now, having a bad headache and gastric kinda pain. Hope after medication would be fine yar? Tomorrow test prepared to flunk and hopefully I'd still put in all my efforts and attemp the question and not being a coward, a lazy bum to miss his lesson!
Gonna edit my blog a little bit before going to bed. Nighty everybody!
Wake up so damn early this morning while I only have that little sleep last night. Thought that I'd just came back home and took a nap before going out. Haa... but in the end I came online to blog. Hmm, it has been a donkey months since I last woke up so early on Monday for taxation class. Kinda miss boarding the bus in the coward, bleahx!
Kinda pissed off by Irene, I mean there're so many seats available in the lab but why must she sit in between jingyi's and I? I know she wanna sit next to JY but can't she sees that we're just right beside, right beside, is like so cramped le. And sharing the table with her, full of her stationeries lying all over the place... dotx... cannot stand.
Went to have my breakfast right after PTX class with Kakis Hau's. Haa... famished. Lunch time tried out the cheese prata, wah sey... 'nap arh! Haa... so damn nice! Gonna have it again perhaps... tml? Haa...
Later going to Jas house just to eat and play around, miss her mom cooking. Haa... gonna 've a great dinner... but couldn't stay for too long cuz tomorrow having Final adjustment progress test. So shitty... haix... totally no idea what will be the format like, totally blank...
That's about all... gonna rest... =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:42
05 February 2006
I'm nobody
Thought I'm gonna pour out all my thoughts in one entry for 050206 but I couldn't help blogging out all my thoughts right now...
So I've been waiting for you to be online did you know that? I trace back the time against my tagboard, the taggy that you tagged. After so long, haven't been catching up with you, wondering how's your sickness and you said that? Hmm... nvm then... I'm nobody so why should I be pestering you right?
Till date, I still didn't know who am I really to you. And I'm not interested to know any more. All I wanted to be with you is just a friend... nothing more. Missing a friend, caring for a friend, crying for a friend... is that wrong? Perhaps... there's something wrong in my brain bah... W.A.Crap... yes yes yes... I'm crapping all along since xxxxxx no ones to thank to, perhaps... thanks myself for being a fool... a crown... dropping my tears because of you.
I've changed most of the things that I'd just to forget the past and wanted to look ahead of my life. But why... why am I always like these? Am I too sensitive? Whatever it's... I'm tired.
And you... whatever you like to imagine about me and him, go ahead. Not gonna clarify anything. If I'm... there're really tons to clarify with you...
Sick and tired...
Life at home and in school doesn't makes much a difference... is equally SUCK!
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:02
:+: What a treat :+:
Is 12:38AM now, I'm so damn duper tiring. Have been sleeping the whole morning, slacking the whole afternoon and shopping the whole evening.
2 days and I've spent around 160 bucks... ? Damn...
2 movie tixs - $17
Cheesy Combo - $8.50
Mac treat - $9.50
Perlin Sliver Ear Ring - $25
Lingeries - $25
The ultimate - $5.50
White Choco Dream - $5.50
Round Neck Giordano Shirt - $13
Sunday lunch - $2.20
Small treat for myself - 80 cents
School stuffs - $10
Feb concession - $37.50
Total -$159.50
And that goes my pay... Actually I suppose to go meet her and take my pay from her but in the end we went shopping till nuts... we spent up all our pay and in the end... forking out CNY money too... what a "pamper" treat for myself!!!
So have been slacking the whole day, gonna sleep now and wake up with IAC homework pending and revision for taxation as well. Dad's birthday coming, should I call a celebration? But he had his lunar celebration in malaysia le... hmm... see how first bah... nighty...
llHow clear you wanna me to clarify with you there's N.O.T.H.I.N.G between me and him? ll
There's once I loved him but now I only miss him... how am I gonna explain to you? I don't know... cuz I still didn't know how to differentiate what's love and what's miss... could you please explain the difference?
:+:Pissed off:+:
Today is a sunday morning and yet I was so early in the morning to blog, WT*
What's the hell my kor called me so early in the morning? Wa kao a ~ I didn't manage to sleep well last night yet... !@#$%^&*
Damn pissed off!!!
Didn't know why, my hand gets numb a couple of times last night. Stomach and leg musclers kinda cramp too... maybe cuz of last night didn't exercise bah... cuz went shopping mah. 2 9 to be continued again.
Still thinking of him...
Getting back to sleep...
:+: Updated @ 3pm :+:
Taking a break from revision. Nothing much to update either. Perhaps, later in the evening going to granny house where all uncles and aunties would be reached there @ around 5pm? Haa... everything gonna depend on my cousins...
Actually came online to look for you [YY] wanna discuss IAC homework with you, but guess you were out with your master right? Wahaha... kidding lah... so sianz... how to get started?
Hmm... perhaps doing BCM script writing better. Haix... the scenario so complicated. Kkx... gonna get started...
llGuy, I still wanna the f'shipll
:+:Thanks Jimmy Maria:+:
Kakis Y(2), don't say sorry le... more or less either one of us gotta get started for the script right? Haa... beside... everytime I didn't go school and you girls couldn't get started. Haa... yea... we will do a good role play... on... when arh? Haa... whatever... and we gonna score the highest!!! That's my aim kkx? Hopefully no quarrel, no fight... 3 cheers for us! Rock on... posted again @ 6:19PM
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:38
04 February 2006
. . .
Am I too sensitive... or dad? I've been to wondering, what's so good to be suspicious of me going down for a jog everynight? My god, he's simply too... too... I'm left speechless, sigh. [If he thinks that I'm meeting some guy or whatsoever, then by all means. I'm pissed off! Perhaps, eat till like a fatso is what he gonna be happy about bah... ****] Totally no mood to blog about him.
Watched with girl "I not stupid too" again last night, guess this time round more people cried? Including me... Reached home around 3am + and I was being frightened by kor [aniwae, long story] and so my attitude sucks, anyway... I'm sorry.
Turning in, having him in my mind... tears dropped. Argh, seems like word speaks louder than action uhh? Thoughts... when will I feel secured to blog out here? When...
And... perhaps... everything's my fault. Have you think and recall back what you said in those e-mails? Your msn nick... if you didn't. Here I'm gonna help you recall...
"if i say anithing that "hurt" make u "sad" or wad, sorry ba.. i'm reallii berii sianss leeee......~~~ "
"I don't wanna anything more than friends"
"I don't think I wanna know the answer le"
Evertime I chilling out late night, you get worried sick. I know you care but do you need to get so worried sick? I don't know... all I know 's I'm not easy to be pleased bah... wanna know the answer? Here it's => "I no need any more guy to play a part in my life right now, GIF UP... I'm SoRri3s... [e word both of us detest the most?]...
So haven't recover from your sickness, take xxtra care then. This is the last time I'm gonna say this le. Same to you [A] and you [T]
Right now in NUH? Going for operation... haix... hopefully it's gonna be a successful operation for you too. See when I'm free... perhaps... dropping by to visit you bah... haix...
When will you guys make me stop worrying?
llChances I've given but none cherish itll
llAll I'm asking iish friend 184?ll
llPossible?ll
:+: Little update before mug:+:
Heard from jie2 that moii shuai shuai de biao di praising mii. Haa, ur bui bui lin lin jie jie iish still e same, FAT! Haa... not getting prettier @ all but getting uglier than before. Hmm, heard tt u're getting more n more shuai, but once you gotten a girlfriend don't forgets me hor? Haa, kinda regret didn't go back to m'sia at take lots of photo wif you. Perhaps... moii mummi iish going back somewhere around May? Think i'll be following her back bah, so you must come back worx! Haa... I miss you lots too ~ Take care worx my shuai shuai de biao di... smuackiex
llI still couldn't forget da pastll
Hopefull you're feeling better guy, don't hang out so often and finally call or sms me when you're free bah...
I hope I'll luv myself more
12:46
03 February 2006
Hard work pays off. So yesterday have been revising till 3 in the morning? Exactly! Know why? Cuz I simply couldn't figure out how did he compute to get the depreciation amount for the machinery. Until we reached class this morning, he was explaining that he computed wrongly, and I was like wa kao! Cuz the revision suppose to end earlier than that, and the amount I got last night was the same as what he've corrected. It was like O.M.G!!! But come on, human being makes mistake too... and his ACLD... American Chinese Loves Durian. Also mistaken as ADLC... what the... haa... Add Credit Less Debit 'cher.
So today we're doing our progress test for disposal on reducing method? Yea... worth the revision last night... cuz with everything done correctly, glad. =) Cuz no need to go for the endless test since I already hitted A for it. Perhaps... gonna take the question and try doing at home bah.
One sad thing's... think I'm so damn e careless. Just compute wrongly for the no of years of depreciation by one year and that's it... I didn't make it again. Haix... so gonna sit for the IV test? Btw, though it appear to be the IV, but is only the 3rd attempt on the coming 6 Feb? Cuz missed the first two tests...
So I think majority of my c'mates have cleared the straightline, guess I'm gonna be alone doing the test? Haa... make sure I'll be more careful this time round with everything meticulously done. If not the test isn't going to end...
So next week, we gonna have 3 tests on the 6th, 7th, and 10th just for this module. Taxation CA2 on valentine's day... what a good day they've choosen, sigh... Accounting CA2 on 23 Feb? And exam in one month time... and of cuz... holiday in around 2 months time.
:+:oV3Rsl3pt:+:
What a damn, I overslept!!! And so happens to be his lesson?!! I know I'm sure he gonnas give a damn when I get back to school on Monday. Haix... what to do? Stupid alarm always don't ring and my brother, WTH he's doing, can't try waking me up... no harm asking right... what the **** . Kkx... I know my attitude simply sucks! Pissed off... gonna prepare... and continue my revision... HELL... @ 7:44AM
:+:Taking a break:+: Still doing my revision half doing half slacking I hope I'd just hit his target and that's it... otherwise he's gonna drill us till we hitted @ least 80marks for each topic. Damn... before I forgot, Mr Hari thinks that I'd be acting as a customer complaining about the goods gonna be good. Cuz he has seen me complaining once before. Anyway, I do have a reason for giving up acting the customer, cuz afterall I think the role that I'm taking is the least to show ones potential in this kind of scene. Yawn... time to mug again. Whatever it's... luckily 's a short school day tomorrow. And yea, mummi is sick yar? Take care...
Diet plan
`Drink more water
`30/set of sit ups [3 sets/day]
`2 rounds [every 9]
`Wash up before 8pm
`1 meal [prerfer lunch]
So is late and he's out with friends... o.M.G!!! WTD? Just enjoy and take great care on the way. Nighty...
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:21
02 February 2006
Just a quick update
So everyone is back from m'sia and sis commented that I had put on weights? Gosh... immediately I stop eating the grapes that she brought over from her house and get changed for a jog. Guess it has been quite a few MONTHS that i've been jogging, so was rather breathless when jogging the second round? Dear, I think I'm gonna find someone to accompany to gym, so Agnes when we're going?
Haven't got started for tomorrow test, slacking all the way, now already 11:42PM, really gonna get started right after this last update for today. Hmm, everyone pampered their nails with nailarts... I misses mine on my birthday chalet last year. So when am I gonna be rich again and do my manicure cum nailarts? I'm simply lazy to do it myself... or rather I don't have the talent to do? Haa... anyway... heard that CNY in m'sia nothing fun... so is like equally bored?
I just couldn't help stop blogging a sec!
So here I'm back to blog. It seems like it's gonna be a longest entry among 500 over post since the first day I start having a habit of keeping an onine diary.
So after haven't been eating rice for 5 days, I think rice/noodle really spoilt my appetite this evening. Gastric kinda pain...
Haix... dinner being delivered to me right infront of com, that's how I was being pampered by mom. Yea... she's the nicest mummy in this whole world! But I think, I guess and I supposed, she's the most naggy mummy too. Oh okay... I know she cares... but that's not the way mom!
There's nothing between me and him
So I'm back from school, so tiring. On my way home in the MRT, I guess I shouldn't have sat down... or rather wrong location we're sitting down at. All memories are back... dotx... so didn't manage to catch a nap on my way back home, so rotted shit.
Yea... I'm packed with tons of work to do today, but I realized that my blog's much more important than everything else. Kidding... it seems like I'd only can have either the cursor or the flakes... yea... perhaps... ones shall not be so greedy? That's nonsense! I'm gonna figure out this weekend... that's for sure.
Mummy finally back home yar? Cuz a free ride from pei yu jie2 de boyfriend's car... yea... life with mummy around is damn duper good? Reached home with a warm cup of milo... I misses those days... and of course mummy brought me something nice to eat, grilled wings... is from JB... opps... is illegal mom! But who cares since u already reached home with that succulent c. wings! Of course I saved up for my 2 brothers... simply miss those days we quarrels all daes and nights? Haa...
I'm tired, not gonna do the flake now... gonna move up my friend's link... cuz I was having a hard time to visit their webby... it was so down? Yea... that's the editing for today...
Guy, if you got anything really wish to let me know, would you please drop me an mail? There're lots of things I really wanna clarify... there's really nothing between me and him. Don't tell me, caring for someone is a wrong righty? I didn't know you're sick too, until now. So you saw my msn sub nick? I hope you do take extra care of yourself too, need any help just drop me sms/call me also can... promise to cheer up?
:+:Little update of the dae:+:
Finally I'm done with everything? So time to update before turning in...
Went shopping with friend yesterday afternoon, well... not much I've bought but spent quite a bit? Basically on e cab fare cuz I thought I'm gonna be late despite of meeting @ 3pm. Ultimate drink, side dish, a pair of new shoes [not really what I wanted, a pair of shopping shoe], sweeties and a customized key with doraemon printed infront and my nick [Saddix APG] at the back, pretty worth it... so when's the next duplication for another key? That goes about 40 bucks? Perhaps...
Reached home around 9pm so have been around 4hours plus of shopping exluding the travelling time. Have been online for about 4hours busying chatting and editing of my blog again. Oh not gonna take the credit... I seek help from Damien again. Well, Jo's too... and of cuz I tired to add this snowflakes in too, but it just so happens that he's the first to get it works on my blog? Haa, once again, thanks a dozen pal! So how was it looking right now, complicated? Anyone cares to comment? So it has been almost a year since I've been crazily exploring and playing round with javascripts... so what's next? Flash... gosh... next lifetime bah... heex...
Later going back to school, *yawn*... hopefully I'd pay 101% of attention. Thought of asking for a one-to-one xtra class after school from next week onwards, is he willing? Well, I'm not gonna go if he gonna ask the whole class... cuz I really needs his 101 attention on me... I don't mind a small grp of people around 5? That's gonna be the maximum no of ppl for me.
Project, another role play is coming... gonna complete within 3 weeks? Is too rush, CA2 in 2 weeks time... what a damn... SIGH...
Have been occupied the whole day with so many things to do, that I missed out to drop him an sms. So guy, how you feeling? Better or worsen... gonna miss you
Lots to do...
Time to mug, revision
Project
Repaint moii nails
Endless editing to blog
Reply mails
Tidy up my cupboard before mom's back
Oh yar... Jo's did anyone from BLCCCO invite you for CNY visit to their house this saturday? So cares to drop by with me? 6 Feb invited by Jas to her house for dinner... thanks girl! W.A.D, is already 3:19AM? Still updating... O.M.G!!! Is a long post once more... WTD?
Nighty
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:25
